So much pain around me, i often don't know what to do. SO much pain within me, so much hurt, starting toi beleieve what is said is part true. I can't beleive it cause i know it's not from you. Most my real friends are not from school but are from all other schools. Can't wait for that journey i take every friday afternoon...the one that thats me away from that place and to my refuge the Church ...where all things good suround me and i feel comfort ...even though imperfection floods around me. The bus takes me into a better place...the weekend ....the middle park westlake mt om area where i spend most of all my weekends, although some may call me a bum walken round there around those few streets i know so well....i find amazing comfort in such things, especially when i am with my friends. Means so much to feel the touch of friends much loved and care for them....pray for them....study Gods will with them...sit in Gods presence with them. Thankyou God for all my friends, I will be so glad to leave in about 97 days i think. At least i wont loose the friends i knew and loved as much as the others will in a way.